ME in letters and pixels

12
Oct

Still no where

I want to get better, I really do…but what if I don’t have the strength to?

right now, I really wish my mum’s here to give me a big hug, to tell me that I’m safe and everything’s gonna be alright..that’s all I want.

“It was hard telling u that I’m okay when u asked me how I am..it was as if u knew something was wrong yet I had to lie so that I don’t worry you..I’m sorry, I hope you’re still proud of me.”
11
Oct

No where

This place is darker than I thought..Where am I? No where. Where is the light? I don’t know. All I wanna do is sleep…cos when I do, for that few hours, I don’t feel anything..no pain, no pressure, no expectations, no hurt, nothing. And that’s all I want right now, to feel nothing.

“Are u ok?” - No I’m not.
15
Jun

[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

think i’m gonna learn this song next.. =)

“I thought I had you figured out, well I should have shut my mouth, cos now you turned and walked away”
1
13
Jun

[Flash 10 is required to watch video]
Did a one day “project”, just because I can..haha

learnt how to play What A Friend I’ve Found by Delirious?, closest I could get to “stardom” I guess, Switchfoot wanna hire me? I could help to tune your guitars =P

anyhoo.
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7
Jun

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1
Jun

"Go away, you try to take the best of me, go away."
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31
May

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31
May

Things are getting more and more obvious now.
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29
May

Heart, checked.

So, you know how God reveals some things to you sometimes? Yeah, He did, to me..and I think I know why sometimes He doesn’t. It’s always either because we’re not ready, or we’re not ready. But when He thinks we’re matured enough to take it, He shows, and even though we’re more ready then, doesn’t mean that it won’t hurt…like crap.

I found out recently that some of the people I usually hang out with, are actually “fake”. They hang out with me for other motives (to get close to someone else), or worse, they hang out then talk bad/talk about my “issues” behind my back. Of course there’s the whole benefit of a doubt thing, but in the end, I know that it’s not worth it. With friends like that, do I still need enemies?

Don’t be surprised if I start to distant myself from some of you. I just don’t appreciate the things said and done. Everyone has their issues and if you don’t know what’s really going on, please don’t start judging or assuming. And the labels that you have put on me, it’s no wonder I can’t get out of the mess that I’m in. I am not trying to be proud, nor am I being emo, I just don’t want to put myself in a position where I can be hurt by you again. So this is it, have a good life.

I don’t need people like that in my life. I know that only He is enough for me. I tried so hard to please everyone, but I can’t. So I’m not gonna live my life trying to make everyone happy anymore, NO. From this day forward, I’m living only to make Him proud, to make Him happy. I thank God that He has placed a few leaders around me who’s been caring for me and loving me, otherwise, I’d be long gone. Seriously.

A prophet came to church today, the first thing she said when she came to me was “Can I just hold you?” and she gave me a big hug. Then she said something about me (super accurate), prayed for me, and prophesied over my life. I know that I have been struggling with that, I know. All the insecurities and hurt, He knows..but just knowing that God remembers me, and wants me, tears flowed…and with the tears, I felt the freedom, I felt peace and most importantly, I felt loved. It’s been awhile. Thank You Lord. =)
- Personal
4
Mar

just wanted to post something..miss him everyday! (Taken with instagram)